Ok yall...I'm back on my bully (as the kids say...or is that just NY'ers lol) and getting back into the swing of life. During my hiatus, I actually contemplated when I'd come back...if I'd come back..how I'd come back n just said phk it...GET IN THE GAME!! I shoved myself to get back into what I love doin...creating n writing! For the gorgeous holiday Monday to celebrate Independence Day, I woke up to the alarm (I forgot to confirm w/Alexa to skip) n although I wanted to take advantage of NOT goin to work, my brain kept tapping me to get up n get productive.
I ignored this nudge for a solid 30 min but I just could not go back to sleep! The whisper just kept growing louder until I gave in around 0600a. It was just a jolt telling me to go out n take pics for my blog. Was I prepared? No! Did I know what I was gonna wear? No! Did I know where to go? No! This was totally on a whim. As I was doing the typical morning ritual, the idea just came together. I was set to do ONE outfit but before I left out the door, I grabbed a quick change. It was something I could toss on n keep it simple. Did I leave in full glam? Nope! These days it's mascara n brows n being extra is blush for me these days. I say all this to say...Stop Overthinking Shyt. Far too often we wait on the "right moment" and the "right time" n have these grandiose ideas of executing a full production of an idea before we roll it out. The thing is...we gotta start somewhere but the important part is starting!
Now for me...I love taking pics n I figure if I'm gonna go for coffee, I might as well kill 2 birds with one stone right lol. To the naked untrained eye...folks be thinking I have a full fledge photographer and well...I don't (I let Mason sleep in). It's just me, my tripod, a self-timer n my iPhone that's like 3 generations behind. I care not if there's an audience or not, I just want the shot. Just think...if not now then when? It's like when people hold on to that infamous dress or clothes for the "special occasion" n by the time that shyt rolls around u either can't fit it or the trend is older than a laminated Blockbuster card.
Overthinking doesn't plague me becuz I don't take myself too seriously yet I totally understand becuz it can seep into my own thoughts at times. I also suffer from procrastination so there's that as well. I allow the excuses of "not feeling like it" extend longer than it should n I owe it to myself to get over the hump n make it happen. When I brainstorm the idea alone, I cringe at the process:
The outfit
Location
Time (to include how long the drive to/from)
(also how long will it take to take pics...after all I am a ONE WOMAN BAND)
Accessories aka which coffee shop
Outfit change (if it applies...where u changing and how can u make sure ur shyt ain't crooked)
The crowd (I do appreciate those who step aside n pause to let u snap)
Pausing to review the shot: Ugh...I blinked...Ugh my bra strap showing...PHK my foot cut off...dmn it.
Now that the photoshoot is over...the fun begins :D
Reviewing pics
Edits
Social Media pics
The process can go from a half to full day n organizing how u wanna present it can get overwhelming. So again...I totally understand the overthinking of it all-I just don't want it to prevent u from sharing ur greatness with the world. I talk to pre-bloggers who want to get in the game but don't know how or bloggers who get stuck in a rut n don't know how to reignite the spark n I know part of it is the monster to compare. Work with what u have NOW n get it done. Give urself a deadline n stick to it. Although I'm talkin to yall...I'm also speaking to myself. There's an idea for a post I should've executed since Memorial Day **eyeroll to self** Creating this post alone after such a hiatus is an accomplishment in itself. I actually carved out the time n intentionally paused bshytn to do THIS! This is what I love, this is what I wanna share so why do I keep making excuses to deprive yall of these gifts? Overthinking...thinking too much n not doin enuff. My manager, Marci gets me to n gether ALL the time n I appreciate her staying on my azz. We all need someone to keep us accountable. What do u have to lose? Nothing!!
I am proud of conquering the overthinking bug that leeches on us at times. On a whim, I was able to snap 2 outfits, 3 pair of shoes, remembered to change my earrings out, enjoy coffee, Kiki'd via my IG stories, did a REEL (cuz I'm no Hype Williams lol) n tossed some captions on FB all before NOON. I will now do a follow up post to give some outfit deets n work on a 3rd post to drop this week-whoa-who am I haha. Whenever that burst of energy hits for u to create LISSSSSEEEEEEEEN. You will be glad u did cuz the real freedom n independence is letting go of fear!
Happy 4th of JuFLY yall XOXO
Smooches